thanks for the comment.  i know it'll happen when it happens, but we already went through this with paige and i figured it's be a piece of cake the second time around.   that's what i get for thinking.

i can just see you on the floor at 2 am pouting and eating chips. lol.  hope you gets those cheesy eggs and bacon.  we have plenty of bacon over here! 

i'd say "hun, here are some things the baby needs. Thanks!"

that should work

have you ever read twilight? I'm not sure if you'll like it but i cried when i saw this on line entry.

I'm not going to give you it all, but one of the main characters is Isabella Swan, and everyone calls her Bella. And in the storyline, Edward writes a lullaby for her. You should check it on youtube. It's lovely....and it's called Bella's Lullaby!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJyH-oH_aqk

he must've about shit himself when he saw that pic!  oh to be a fly on the wall.....

love the tattoo!

does he know about preterm birth. explain it to him and maybe say how most women get month 8/9 off of work cause there child could come any day. tell him its a special event that you would really like him there for to cut the cord or even just hold your hand. just TRY and stay calm and talk calmly. remember he may change his mind if not when you talk to him but closer to the due date. no need to work yourself up he's gonna do what he wants to do. just be strong

*heart hugs*

yup will is going with me

he's too excited like a kid on christmas lol

and roxy is too cute with her beauty sleep remark and yes girl i LOVEEEE army wives

I think bella grace is a beautiful name. I think if I had another daughter i would name her Belle....as in the woman in beauty and the beast...LOL...

anyway, yeah.

Aww how cute. your pumpkin looks great!

Best of Wishes,
LibraVamp

the same thing happens to me and everytime my cervix is still closed. i usually just spot in the morning(tmi)but i don't worry about it anymore because it happens so frequent now. i had that vaginal ultrasound when i went to the ER but i didn't know that caused spotting..thanks for sharing

about the face breaking out...i must be carring a girl cause my face breaks out horribly and my back is starting to break out too(i've never had acne on my back b4 and let me tell you...I HATE IT)

i've been trying to relax too. its so hard to do. but somebody told me that babies feel everything we do. we may be strong enough to handle stress but the baby isn't.

lol can't wait for the pics and i can't wait till sunday night for the season finale of army wives!

can i just say you never say you love him only like him and i know your thinking about your girls but if he's not 100% into the idea then hes not the right man to do the job. my friend mum and dad got together because she became pregant and now there not and its hurt my friend so, much do you really wont your daughter to end up being hurt. There again it might always turn out diffrently but are you willing to take that chance ?if no then tell him its over

hope you sort it out

xx

your not alone.

i completly went off on my bf last night over the smallest thing and then like 5 minutes later we were laughing.

my moods change from second to second

I've been there.
Lately I haven't which I am surprised,
but when I was pregnant
with Angel (I miscarriaged her though)
I cried quite a lot.
I'm possibly pregnant right now
and I think that
I am getting a little close
to my second month.
I know that by then
we get over emotional
so what you are going through
it's absolutely fine.

Hope you are alright
after all.

†Broken Angel†

love, love, love the baby stuff.  especially the diaper bag!

ooh I love this pumpkin ;)

I love rox's hair, I wish Lexi's hair was like that!

I love this baby bedding and even more a custom bag.. wtf.. it is super cute ;)

[Deafchick]

oh gosh don't tell that the 2nd trimester isn't easier. i've been counting down the days. LOL just kidding keep it 100%real i depend on that lol..no really i do.

i love the baby bag and OMGosh i love the baby bedding where are you shopping at????? i guess i can start making wish list now.

i know what you mean about needing more. i guess that we just need to be re-confirmed. thats nice he's taking a week off when the baby gets here. he sounds like a real keeper!

i'm really glad you had a good bday weekend

my favorite from vicki secret is love spell and your bday cake looks too pretty to eat lol.

that was nice of your mom to buy you a bed! i don't think i've asked yet but when is your due date?

oh i LOVE army wives i can't wait for next week's season finale

thanks so much for the recent comment

it really made me feel good that i'm NOT alone. i'm TRYING not to stress out....19 credit hours in college,lack of funds and mom is mourning the loss of my life since i'm having "future". i'm just trying to stay afloat at this time.

Ha, I like your email.  I used to have a screen name that was the same as that, only with 2 n's in Jenn.  Congrats!

Jenn (straight-up, no juice,lol)

lol i just noticed the middle name

i love it!

awww congrats on your baby girl

glad doc said everything is going okay

first off happy early bday

second off your lil girl is adorableeeeeee

and third thanks for the comment on my entry! i feel better knowing i have a mdd friend on here thats preggie. my face has been breaking out too! i've been trying to eat healthy but everything thats bad for you to eat sounds soooooo good to me. thanks for the tid bid about the car seat i hadn't even thought of that.

well have a good one and i'm adding you to my favs

I love pink!!!

I think that the third is amazing, two is fine too, but the first doesn't do anything for me.

Please let us know what you decide.

P.S.: Did I mention that two is dreamy? lol

My ex had a page on a dating site...some like xxx site.  I flipped out and he said his friend's made it.   I believed it..and I really shouldnt have.

I'd say make a page and see what happens.

i think you should do it. don't over work your self too much though because u are pregnant, don't forget that. my cousins and i made a fake profile for christmas to mess with my aunt...seems she can't flirt and she fell in love with 'the professor from gills"...haha.

Don't seem too flirty or into him though, just 'try to be his friend' and if he's seriously trying to 'find someone' he'll be all into you and flirt and stuff.

but don't stress out too much. im sure if he is unfaithful you can see about this baby by yourself just like you did with roxy. men come, men go...that's a good statement to live by.

Good luck w/ any choice you make!

Gr i hate when men do that. I cant believe roxy has 4 times! wow.

some mothers could feel when their pregnancies are different than their 1st. Do you feel it any different?

Do roxy know now? do you plan on bringing her to the ultrasound?

[Deafchick]

Yeah exactly. Its not their business to begin with so why bother dealing with them. You can just shove them under a rug and deal with it whenever you want to.  It's not important :)

hope you can relax!

I like Bella Grace.  I told my friend if I ever have a girl again I might have the name Aurora Belle ( both disney princess)

I dont know what to say about that comments she left him. She might be a friend, or she might be something more. I think you should just wait it out.. its not time to have all those stress now :)

Dont push him in her life, it will get worse.  Let things be, if he wants to come in her life, then let him.  He have the right to do so. But.. when you dont say anything about him, except that hes her dad and etc. .. She will find it out on her own .. who he really is and how he do things.  I think it will help you and her in the long run. That is what Im doing with my daughter, I hope it works. :)

But new baby, that is always exciting.  Is Roxy excited to be an big sister, bring her to the hospitals to look at the new borns have her get the grasp that she is expecting a baby sister or brother soon :)!

I always love to read your diary. Your tribuations and trails make you real.  It made me feel comfortable knowing im not the only one out there :)

Take care, be well rest a lot!

Hope you find a decent job soon, I'm going through the same thing here.  I hate interviews too.  Good luck.

Jenn

  Hello there again,
I'm catching up and I felt a lot of pain in your entries. I couldn't quite make out who your daughter would be staying with in your place, but I don't think you should distance yourself from her no matter who they are. I have always felt your love for her, and I know she has, too.
  I'll be praying for you to find some peace in whatever you decide, and for you to have clear vision of what's best for both of you. Take care my friend, and I'm sorry to hear that some have been judgmental towards you....that's too bad. I'll be around if you want to write any time........your friend, Michael.

I think you are what your title says, lost and confused. At your age I was too. And tattooed. LOL!   But you just came out of a bad relationship, wiht Daniel.  He cheated on you and rejected you. Do you think that maybe these past few men, have been more about wanting somebody to love you, then about the sex.  We all want to feel wanted and loved. More so after somebody has rejected us. 

I spent almost 18 miserble years being married to a man that showed no love or compassion. Of course I stepped out of my maariage trying to find somebody to make me feel better. Somebody to show me yes I was desirable.  But in the end it always made me feel worse.

With age, I will be 42 next month, comes the knowledge, that you don't need a man to make you feel whole.   And as you get older you will find out what a strong independant woman you are. 

Don't beat your self up to bad. 

Keep writing, it sure helps to get it all out. And later you will come back and read your entries.  You will be amazed how much life has changed.

If you do go private I hope you'll add me.  I haven't been reading your dairy for very long, but I have read the ENTIRE thing, lol.  And I'm far from the judging type.  Plus, I've been there....must be something in the name, lol.   Take care hun,

Jenn

you can add me
I won't judge you,
only help you =)

I know how you feel, I was in a similar situation, my ex bf drank too much a party and obviously got sick, I kept bringing him water and even helped him get to the bathroom, I really shouldn't have though, he wasn't mine to worry about anymore. But I did because I tend to be too nice.

Anyways, I cut him out finally, long enough for him to realize he was taking advantage of me but he needed me, it only took him like 2 weeks to call me and tell me he still wanted to be friends and all, and I don't mind being friends, as long as I'm not putting more into the friendship then he is.

I'm not saying it'll take him 2 weeks to realize anything, but remember you're doing this for yourself and not for him. Cutting him out will help you. You can't cheat yourself though. Him coming around to his senses is an extra bonus.

Hope this helps =]

Zoey.

Yeah I had trouble getting on it earlier today I think they probably just trying to fix something :)

Do you like the Black Crowes?  This is a song I liked when I finally left my exhusband.  It's slow and bluesy.  good luck!